Tokyo Majin

 Nothing in this world can compare to how amazing the new chapter of bleach is. Honestly.
Except maybe the latest chapter of Naruto.

On another note. I am writing again (because with the latest chapters and the return of my muse Ichigo into the story how could I not?) but jesus do I have a shit load of reading to do for my course. Note to everyone - never take a major and minor subject that is very heavily book based, it not only gives you very little free time but kills your bank balance and makes you resent reading anything. Ever. 

( SOME SPOILERS HERE KIDDAS )

 Its been an age since I updated....well anything. My journal, my stories er....well thats it to be honest.
But still its been a while.
You might be wondering where I went. Well I'll tell you even if you weren't. 
I started university. Seriously I did not consider how little time I would have for writing. I've not been here that long and I already have loads to do! Still on Sunday I'm going to sit down and get down to some serious chapter writing.

Its just hard to shut myself in my room when there is so much to do. School days are the best days of your life? Fuck that. Uni days are the best days of your life. Hands down.
I've met so many people it seems ridiculous that I could have been nervous about moving away, and while I miss everyone at home I really, really love being away from home. Even if I am utterly penniless. I never realised just how much LIVING costs!

SO hopefully I haven't kept you waiting to long. I'm trying my best. I really, really am!

 I'm back from New York and I just watched the last episode of season 5 of House. I DID SO NOT SEE THAT COMING. 
I'm so excited for season 6 starting tomorrow. Shame it won't be shown in England for ages. Thank god for being able to watch it online.
I wouldn't be able to watch it anyway not having a TV at uni.
I leave next Saturday.
I've never been more scared in my life...why does everyone else I speak to seem so okay and excited? I'm petrified I'm not going to make friends or that people will think I'm strange or...or...theres a million things that could go wrong. 

I'm scared to leave my friends. They are the only people who can drag me out of myself. Without them its frightening how easy it is for me to isolate myself and get absorbed in my own world. It's one of the reasons I've always been able to write stories. Because I spend half my life in them. I'll have to make an effort. A real serious effort to stop that happening. Because even now with friends I love I can sometimes just shut myself away for weeks and the really scary thing is that when I do it I'm fine. I don't even miss people. 

Maybe being on the other side of the country will help me.

If not there is always the epic new Bleach filler arc to occupy my friendless hours. Thats right, epic. Its so full of crack and the animation makes Ichigo look good again. The manga was all doom and gloom and while, don't get me wrong, awesome on so many levels with the vaizard and all my favourite captains there was no Ichigo or Grimmjow though I'm starting to give up hope about his reappearance 
NO! I mustn't be negative he will come back!
The anime has just got some well needed comic relief....and hollow ichigo >.<

Oh and on a related note sasuke should go fuck himself. Seriously. Naruto and Gaara forever! They may replace Naruto and Sasuke as my favourite pair on Naruto as Sasuke insists on irritating the hell out of me and everyone around him. That is all!

 Jesus I have never been more hungover in my life. Or tired. Still its all worth it. Its always worth it for Leeds Festival. I got to see Placebo, Radiohead, Patrick Wolf, Metric, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Jamie T, Kings of Leon, Fall Out Boy, Deftones, Funeral for a Friend, The Prodigy, Maximo Park, New Found Glory, The Living End, Alexisonfire, Bloc Party, Noah and the whale, Tim Minchin. Basically if you haven't heard of any of these bands or people look them up. I swear its worth it because they are all amazing.

So since I'm home I've showered. I swear not washing for four days makes you feel gross. Not as gross as the girl who fell in the toilets must feel though. I swear its even made it onto sky news. If its just a rumor its a friggin' epic one. 
Still I have nine days before I go to new york and I have soooo much to do before I go to uni and when I get back I've only got a week and five days before I leave home. Its scary.
BUT I WILL FINISH LOVE LESSONS BEFORE I LEAVE I've been editing each chapter as I write it up from paper so I think it improves them. Though I did manage to lose one of the pages. I think I left it in the villa when I was on holiday so if anyone is staying in croatia soon check your villa you might get lucky =] At least have got the first two chapters of the new sing to me. Its in a whole new format now and its first person!! I just hope it works as a story. The plots kinda the same but I think its the new style that makes it seem better and new and exciting and makes me love it more than anything else I have written >.< Except maybe cat and mouse but I just liked the handcuff sex on a plane. It was so fun to write!

 I've not updated in a while despite the fact that I'm really close to finishing typing up the next chapter of Love Lessons but my life has changed really suddenly.
I got my results and I got into Uni and I'm leaving home next month.
I'm scared shitless.

my results were GOOD. This was unexpected. I didn't do as well as I hoped in History so I didn't get into my first choice university but I got into my second choice which is still a fantastic uni that I love so I'm happy. Genuinely 100% happy for the first time in ages.

It feels so weird knowing that when I get back from new york nearly all my friends will have left for university. Except the ones who aren't going. But then I'll be leaving. Its scary!

So even though the new chapter is nearly done it won't be up for a while cos I'm off to Leeds Festival. Radiohead on Saturday.
*dies* omfgwtfbbq I'm going to die.

 My results come out in five days. FIVE DAYS.
The sleepless nights have already begun.
The universities receive the results today.
I'm all kinds of messed up.

Still me LEEDS TICKET CAME =] Mega whoop.
and my best friend painted a portrait of me for my birthday. I had no idea she was doing it and I love it sooo much. I'm going to take pictures and post it up because it's really beautiful. I don't mean that as in I'M really beautiful, I mean it is beautifully done =] I went to a gallery today and looked at the John Singer Sargents (he is one of my favorite painters) and I think it is even better than some of his. She really captured my essence as in it I'm sitting in a pub, drinking skittles and really....what else do I do with my life?

I don't have writers block really, I just think this is a really interesting question. As someone who spends their spare time listening to lectures about theoretical and quantum physics and philosophy a lot of ideas that I had never thought of before have been opened up to me. I'm a cynical person and I do believe that science can answer most things, I'm a firm believer in the big bang and Darwin's theory of evolution. However recently I've found myself thinking a lot about the cause of the big bang, which a lot scientists are questioning. The general idea of it needing to be sparked by an observer (well it's a little more complicated than that but lets keep it simple for now) is interesting and actually believable.
I suppose if I'm being very general, which I imagine many people are, I used to think Science had all the answers, and the more I explore of it and the more I read and research the more I find that belief being strengthened and knocked. As I've got older and taken more of an interest in things like that I find myself wondering if science will have all the answers.

Good job I'm going to do a history degree so I don't have to think about these deep questions. All I have to worry about is finding a lecturer willing to let me study the history of science, which is where my true passion lies =] 

 So I'm another year older and maybe a little wiser. Still didn't get a car though. I did however get an amazing laptop so I'm not complaining. Not at all. 
EXCEPT ABOUT MY MONSTER HANGOVER 
But that is self induced and so I can't complain about it, because really it just means that I had a very good night. And that I did.

Still it would have been nice for my best friend to turn up. I mean its not like we are going to be at opposite ends of the country in a month or so and this is my last birthday up here. Its not like I made a huge effort for her birthday and threw her a surprise birthday party that was difficult to plan and left my house trashed. But she was tired after doing a play so decided she wasn't going to come. 

Ah I'm trying not to complain but its hard not to be annoyed. I think I'm too much of a push over when it comes to my friends but I know how it feels to fall out with people and I know how it feels to not have anyone so its hard to imagine loosing everyone. Whatever my real friends were there and I may have calmed down about it all but they didn't. They are still furious. I love how protective they are sometimes =D

Still - nose piercing next week and I'm off to make my tattoo appointment =D finally found what I want. It was gonna be 1000 cherry blossom my favourite zanpaktou release but I decided to go and get the poem from the front of one of the Bleach Volumes - No, nothing can change my world. In celebration of my love of Bleach and Kubo.

I'm really hung over. Damn unexpected nights out. Still it's surprisingly nice to be back in england. Not that I didn't love my holiday I just missed my friends and mum and cats.

But I wrote the last three chapters of Love Lessons >.< Just got to type them up. I hope its going to stop the reviews from the people who are like "omg rukia what a biatch I hat her SOOOO muchhh," I like Rukia and those reviews just aren't constructive towards my writing or the plot, if people feel it is to obvious as I have felt it is at times.

I'm not sure what I'm doing about Sing to Me at the minute tho. I don't like it as it is right now....but now that the end is nigh for love lessons I can work on it at my leisure while I start a new fic for a new pairing. And of course more one shots for GrimmIchi >.<

But OMG at Bleach and Naruto is my only other input today >.< k, thanks.

( Part 4 )

Ichigo feels like a shoujo girl in this and I can't write fight scenes. I'm sun burnt and grumpy but Federer winning Wimbledon has really lifted my mood. I love tennis and I love him even more  =D

( Part 3 )

 

( Part two )

So as it's long I have split it up. Because just the first part is 7 pages. So here is my belated GrimmIchi day offering - Ichigo the Vampire Slayer. A one shot based on Buffy the Vampire Slayer - obviously.

Ichigo the Vampire Slayer

By Tokyo Majin

 

Based on Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Ichigo Kurosaki – Vampire Slayer. The end of the world is the least of his problems when the vampire Grimmjow Jaegerjaques shows up in Karakura town again.

Rated M for language, smut, end of the world clichés and violence.

( Part one is here )

 

Still an unemployed bum. I need money. Please help. All donations welcome.

I've been working on Love Lessons on my sister's laptop because mine is being temperamental and I've freaking lost it. HALF A CHAPTER. I usually back it up on my memory stick but I didn't cos I couldn't find it and now I think she has deleted it off her computer.
GRRRR
I'm going to have to start from scratch now. And I'm still working on the one shot I started for GrimmIchi day. It's soooo long I think I'm gonna split it into three chapters.

Well whatever I have loads of time now that my exams are over, my prom's done and I've drank myself into a freaking stupor most nights of this week and I lost my job.....*sigh* so I'll start all over again when I'm not drinking and job hunting. Job Hunting. The most depressing thing to do at a time where NO ONE is looking for staff cos of the recession. I really need money for Leeds, New York and then Uni.

Ah but still Naruto is all talk now. But Sasuke pisses me off. Good job Bleach is all action. And One Piece is just awesome. Because it always is. I love Luffy and Zoro (Y)

Well I'm off to the pub (Y) I'l write when I come home.....maybbeeee
or maybe I'll sit reading yaoi manga and fanfictions

Feels like ages since I found any time to get online. It has been ages but I take pleasure in the fact that I only have two more exams to go. Then I just have to wait a few months and I can see how badly I have done.
I'm being optimistic about them.

I finally managed to read my manga and all I can say is that Kubo is running out of zanpaktou ideas - Guns and a Rocket Launcher. Seriously dude. Me thinks he couldn't think of anymore ice dragons and err...old men in coats. Actually screw that I think they might be getting better

But seriously Naruto made me cry. It was just beautiful >.<  

Ah I swear the only thing getting me through my exams are my friends and the talks of the pre and post prom party and the Leeds crack. It's already started and it's making me so excited I can't even type. Seriously =D

So I'll leave you all with the knowledge that Rowntree, using Booth's work, conducted a research into the levels of poverty in his town of york and came up with the idea of life-cycle poverty, that a family would have phases of wealth and poverty and that outside events could push the family deeper into poverty such as the death of a wage earner, unemployment and illness.

Yeah History rules

I don't understand why people feel the need to wax their cars......Why do you need your car to be really shiny? I mean its just a car.....ah but I'm distracting myself. But thats not the good news

Well my life has been crazy. I thought I would have more time to update but when I haven't been revising I've been visiting my LITTLE SISTER!
I actually  can't believe how cute she is. One week old little Lottie. I've been spending nearly all my spare time just sitting with her. She has officially been nicknamed Monkey D. Lottie =] In honor of my one piece obsession and how wriggly she is. Its like she is made out of rubber lol. And she is like a little monkey.
Ah I'm gonna try super hard to be a good big sister.Just like mine has been to me. 
It's strange, I usually hate babies and little kids but I guess its different when they are related to you.

and I've bought her the cutest things! like a hello kitty and some super cute babygrows. she is going to grow up to be very spoiled.

But I finally dragged myself away and came online. I missed my manga and I miss writing! But wow bitch ninja is getting her ass handed to her and Hitsu isn't dead yet....damn. lol.

Last week of school ever this week. I'm so scared for my exams now =S
still I have a big weekend of drinking ahead of me as its my friends birthday. And me and my friends are big on birthdays. Especially ones that involve an excessive amount of vodka. 

All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl
All work and no play makes Lucy a dull girl

Ah I've been working a lot recently. Not much writing or living time or....well ANYTHING time.
Although I have been reading one piece in my breaks. I love it. 
I'm still little stressed but its nothing too bad and I'm so excited to get my dress for the school dance =D I refuse to call it a prom. Its not. It is summer ball!

And I'm also enjoying talking to my japanese friend who I'm looking after while she is in England. Its fun to talk to someone who is from the country I'm going to be going to soon and that I'm going to learn about at University....well if I pass my exams *sigh*
I wish life didn't have to be so...so...life like.  
 

and if you are really unlucky you live next to a river and it fucking floods and ruins all your shit.
Thats kind of how I feel right now.
As if I didn't have enough to stress about then BOYS come along and make everything worse.
I hate complicated relationships. Especially ones with my best friend who just got out of a really serious relationship and then goes on to drop loads of hints as if that wasn't the first thing on my mind when I heard the news and isn't one of the things I've sort of wanted since new year

Its so messy I hate it. And I'm stressed. And my laptop just keeps deciding not to work for a few days which is annoying as I'm usually either writing a fic or doing some important coursework. AND whenever I remove my earphones I hear the music from the notebook that my mum is watching downstairs and start crying. Because its one of the saddest and most beautiful films ever. errr....that one isn't as overly dramatic and angsty as the others....but errrr i thought it should be mentioned because it's adding to the teenage drama that is filling my life with woe. (because if I can't be over dramatic about my stupid problems then when real ones come along how will I know how to act?)
But on a much brighter note I started my diet today, because I want to loose some weight to get into my dress... (argh I think that is possibly THE most girly sentence I have ever uttered. You know some days I say things and realize that I am actually a GIRL)

Whatever. I got waaayyyy to drunk again at the weekend. Really need to stop doing that except I am planning to do the same this weekend and hope that I magically sort out all my crap. But the funfair is in town =] That lifts my spirits a little bit. And do you know what. The weather has been nice. Like really warm and sunny. I live in the north of England. This is very very very rare for us. Seriously I saw a girl in shorts today. I was amazed!

Oh and Kubo sucks. I hate yammy. (But ya know.....still love Kubo obv after all Ichigo's shirt still has not returned lol)

I'm back from London. It was so much fun. I forgot how much I love that city. I also think I got over my fear of dinosaurs (brought on from watching Jurassic Park at a very young age and having nightmares every night fr a year after) after my trip to the National History Museum where they had this robot T-Rex. It was life size. Real scary. But I didn't wet myself or cry so I'm thinking I've finally let go of my childhood fear.
I also saw the model of the blue whale. Who knew the fuckers were so big.
Obviously I did more than that.  I went to see a play and went to Yo! Sushi and had a mooch around the shops. It was a good trip. Even if it did rain. But this is England, honestly what was I expecting?

I got my Leeds ticket as well. I'm so excited. RADIOHEAD! PLACEBO! YEAH YEAH YEAHS! BRAND NEW! FALL OUT BOY! DEFTONES! THE COURTEENERS! AFI! THE PRODIGY! KINGS OF LEON!

OH AND DID I MENTION RADIOHEAD? ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE BANDS? I'm honestly so exited to see them. And Brand New because I couldn't get tickets for them in Manchester and I just have to see them. And Placebo because I'm in love with Brian Molko. And AFI cos I love Davey Havoc......Well all the bands basically. Except Arctic Monkeys. Waste of a headline spot. They are so over rated.

So I've been working non stop since I came home. Re-bleaching my hair, designing my tattoo, looking from prom dresses online. SERIOUSLY. I never knew I could procrastinate so much. I have so much to do and I've managed to just sit and waste time reading shoujo and yaoi manga!
I did get blueberries and strawberries finished though. I'm almost sad it's done. But not writing stuff for it gives me a lot more free time to work on my other stories. Maybe thats why a new chapter of Love Lessons got done? Who knows.

I also got caught up on manga.


( Naruto )

( FMA )
I'm going back to my shoujo and yaoi manga. I dunno what it is. With my little bro or sis being born so soon I'm all sentimental at the minute and soppy romantic manga are actually tolerable at the minute....or maybe it's that I'm finally letting my inner romantic roam free? She gets very little freedom. I dislike her lol.</div>

I have far too much work. Biology coursework and timed essays left right and center are doing my head in.
I hardly have any spare time because I just have so much to do.
Thats clearly the reason I'm sat on here rather than DOING it.

But I'm reaching panic mode now. My exams are soon and I'm very aware I need to do well. Uni stuff is stressing me. Coursework is stressing me. Exams are stressing me.
Basically I'm one big ball of stress and I'm going to have to pull some big all nighters to get this work all done.
Even my nice calming music isn't working
I'm actually dreaming about friday when I break up for the holidays.

I will assure you all this is my reason for my lack of updates on story fronts. There is another one shot floating around in half complete woe (that isn't GrimmIchi shock horror) an idea for a new GrimmIchi book in my shiny new notebook and another chapter of Sing to Me and Love Lessons as well, both incomplete. AND I'm behind on this weeks manga chapters because I just haven't had time to read them! Its a scandal really. I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS TO ICHI!!!! But yeah. Work comes first....

and buying my Leeds ticket tonight (Y)